Light of an Echo - Black Cat

I didn’t overthink this one.

I just know the feeling. I walk into a room, and something feels off. No one says anything, but I can feel it. Like I’m too present or too… something. Hard to explain, but I notice it every time.

And yeah, for a long time I thought it was on me.

I kept trying to tone it down. Be a bit quieter, a bit softer, and not react so much. I thought that if I just adjusted a little, things would feel easier. People won’t pull away that way.

But it didn’t really change anything.

I still ended up feeling like I don’t quite fit. Same situation, just a quieter version of me.

At some point, I got tired of that.

I started asking myself if maybe I’m not the problem every single time. Maybe I just keep ending up in places where I don’t belong in the first place.

This song came from that headspace.

Not from confidence. Not from some big realization. Just from being tired of constantly checking myself. Thinking before I speak, before I react, before I even let myself feel something properly.

Because the truth is, I don’t do things halfway. I care a lot. I feel things fast. I show it.

And I know that’s not for everyone.

“They say I bring bad luck, but I just bring the truth they can’t stand.”

That line just came out. I didn’t sit there trying to make it clever.

It just felt accurate.

I’ve seen it enough times. Sometimes it’s easier for people to put a label on you than to deal with what you bring into the room. So it becomes “too much”, or “too intense”, or whatever.

Black cat.

I used to fight that. Try to prove it’s not true.

Now I don’t really care to anymore.

If I walk into a room and I don’t fit, I’m not going to twist myself into something else just to stay there. I’ve done that before and it never ends well.

So yeah.

I’d rather be the black cat than disappear just to make things comfortable.